Pregnant, sick, exhausted, but happy. That, in a nutshell, is my life at the moment. When my husband and I found out that we were unexpectedly having another child, it took some getting used to. I will freely admit that. In fact, the thought was completely overwhelming.
Our daughter’s first birthday was a week away and we had another baby on the way? I was only working part-time and my husband had just started a new job. Where would we find the finances? How would I handle two under the age of two? What if I had to have another cesarean delivery? My eldest would still be in diapers and would need to be lifted in and out of the crib – how would I do that post-surgery? If I am at a loss as to how to handle one child, how will I raise two? What if I botch it up?
As the questions swirled, I felt the Holy Spirit speak very clearly into the middle of the storm of emotions and doubts. He brought to mind an old saying that I had heard many times before, “I do not call the equipped; I equip the called.”
God never gives us more than we can handle. Instead of focusing on the joy of a new life, I was focusing on my fears and insecurities. But God is MORE than able to take care of all of the little details.
My job? To enjoy every moment of this new life inside. To treasure the little movements and kicks – special moments that, for now, are mine alone. To prepare the new nursery and buy little clothes. To dream of the great person this child will become.
God is knitting this child together in my womb. He has all of his or her days planned out. This child is God’s handiwork, prepared for good things that God planned long ago. It’s all in the Bible.
What a joy to be a part of the process!